Miss New York USA pageant weekend was an absolute whirlwind! I thought I would have a chance to check in and blog during the weekend but the days were so jam-packed with rehearsals, hair and make up, shows, and more that I barely had a free moment.
I’m going to post about pageant weekend itself, but I wanted to write a note about the pageant outcome now that it’s all said and done. ❤
In many ways, girls like me are not “destined” to make it to the Miss New York USA stage — at least on paper. I am from a single-parent, low-income home. I am African-American. I am short. I have an athletic build. I had no pageant experience.
But I did make it. And I believe that will trumps fate.
I’m disappointed that I didn’t progress further in the pageant (spoiler alert: I’m human! :-P), but I am proud of myself for making the attempt. I will never stop willing myself to succeed; willpower is everything. I never wanted anyone to be able to say that I didn’t win the title because I didn’t work hard enough. This year I simply lost to a better candidate. I lost to a stunning girl who also worked her butt off to succeed and win her title. I can appreciate and live with that.
Competing in Miss New York USA was one of the hardest things that I’ve ever done. I never imagined that I would be saying that (how hard could a pageant really be?!) but it’s the truth.
It pushed me beyond what I thought my limits were physically, emotionally and mentally. From grueling strength and conditioning workouts, to daily meal prep for a strict nutrition plan to endless planning and paperwork, I’ve already grown tremendously through this process. The pageant forced me to be introspective and think about what kind of person, friend and woman I want to be and how I want to project myself to the world. I hope that I can translate all that I’ve learned and accomplished so far into being a better person in 2016 and beyond.
Thank you to all my friends, near and far, for supporting me in this endeavor. What an incredible, incredible experience and who better to share it with than you! I would not be where I am today (or go to wherever it is that I’m going) without your unwavering support. YOU ARE #teamAK. I owe you everything and I love you guys to pieces.